Size Shaming & Pin Up Shoot
really quickly, even though I am predominantly a continuous light user. On occasion, I do have to use my strobe. I travel with one stroke. I haven't Ellen Chrome Strobe on and in those situations, like I may come into a venue and there be maybe a giant skylight or I'll have a loft with really tall, beautiful windows, but no diffusion. So sometimes the light is coming in and I can't overpower it with my hot light. So then I'll bring out my strobe. I have a nice, big soft box, and I still I don't want to trade off with using stroke. I want to be able to shoot my style, which is wide open, and most of the time that's at 1.2. So in order to do that, what I dio is I use an end. Oh, did you that? What's going on? I need help. I don't ever change my settings, so we changed for that. I usually get very cranky if anyone ever touches my camera. So this is me being called. It's daylight. So you had a set at 4700 was, but the diffusion panel and that is going to bring it down about three stops so...
that I can still shoot wide open and still have beautiful light that overpowers the sun. Now, I'm just making a lot of noise. Okay. Does anyone have any questions about strobes? You just want me to get into it. I think I think we should must. You guys. All right, Cool. Let Yeah. Let's do it. Let's get into it. So we're gonna bring layer me out. We're gonna sit over here like we're on TV. Hello, Layer me. So Laramie is a friend of mine. She came up to do this pin upset for us today, so I just wanted Teoh. I mean, I know your story, but I was hoping that you'd have Ah, um the generosity to share your story with the viewers out there. We have shot a lot of curvy women this week, and I know that there's another side. I'm just kind of want the viewers and our students Teoh have the opportunity to see the stories from all different shapes and sizes. So would you like to share with us what you've gone through in terms of being Finn? Um, So I started developing really young. I think that's sort of the beginning of my like. Body consciousness started when I was, like, nine because I started growing up top when I was nine years old. And, um, by the time I was 13 or 14 was like, had the largest pressing class and started getting a lot of attention for them. And it was really uncomfortable attention that I didn't like and fast forward till I was 20. I wound up coming out and late, so as a lesbian and realized that a lot of the attention I was getting from men I really didn't like, probably because I didn't want the attention. But I didn't realize that. And so I had already formed my identity as this person who were really baggy clothes and baggy sweatshirts and baggy pants and was always hiding my body, which is a bummer because in retrospect, at 40 now I'm like I had a slamming body, got moves a little ways. I was really I was, like, horrified for anybody to notice it. So, um and then was in throughout my twenties and thirties, really skinny and people would kind of but frankly kind of tease me and give me a hard time every now and then till frankly, honestly, like a few weeks ago, I was in a business meeting. I'm a hospice nurse, but I was in a meeting with my team and my I somehow ridiculously said something about this patient is really tiny and Global Blonde says she's £123 but she couldn't because I am £ she's half my size and my boss actually said in the middle of a meeting like, Oh, I think I speak for all of the all of us. I hate you. Oh my God, don't say anything more about how skinny you are. And I was like, but just sort of eso We've had this sort of strange, um, discomfort with being a girl with big boobs in a little waste, like its size shaming. Yeah, it's just a weird opposite. When I look in the mirror and I'm like, at this point, I'm like, You know what? I confront this. I've got something good. It's okay. I shouldn't feel badly about being the way I am. But that's also kind of complicated. By recently I discovered I have a giant thyroid tumor, which is maybe part of what's making me skinny, so I can't help that. So it's sort of a weird thing to then discover maybe that this is part of why I'm like this, and it's not something to be ashamed of. It's just kind of who I am. So actually meeting Rachel seriously and learning about what you do. And, you know, talking about, um, body image has helped me recently embraced like this is who I am and this is good and I should be proud of this and flaunt it and enjoy it and not waste any more years being ashamed of having big boobs in a little waste like so That's my story. And I think it's I think it's a sad thing that an element of our society is so focused on how we look and there is that size shaming thing across the board, and there is this kind of us versus them thing, and the whole riel women are really men like curves or so it's all about how this is sides better than that cider. And my work is really, really focused on embracing all women as beautiful and I and not have tearing each other down and lived in each other up, even if they're strangers. And I think that I hope that in my small way I can throw that pebble in the pond and little ripple out and make Oh, so you ready to do this? Let's not cry yet. That's wait till we're done. Okay, so let's get started. So I think because she's starting out in a dress, I don't think that we need this right now. Closely, you know? Well, you know, I think What do you think? Near the boss, lady. Well, we I list. Let's try it. I had saw it in my head. You in lingerie doing this, But let's let's see what it looks like with the, uh let's go ahead and stand up. Let's get rid of this que So I'm just gonna have you turn this way towards the clothes line, right? Like you're pinning it up like you're pinning your and it was Nick you. So you're going to do this? So basically what we want pinup is all about happy and cheesecake and wait. So what we're gonna do, let me Just show you something. Get in your place real quick. So where you're going to be here? Let's can't bring it in just a little bit. We're gonna be here, and we can You kind of want, like, you know, not to make you feel like a total goober. But if we look at pin up pictures, they're all, like, so happy to be doing what they're doing. It love it. So you're gonna look over your shoulders and the lights here. You're gonna kind of turn your body this way, and I'll be right over here. Turn the jugs to Mama. That's right. So we're gonna do this And you really wanna bring arch the booty back and we'll boobies forward, Booty back, shoulders down and they're gonna roll this one forward? Yep. So Yep. And you want to kind of turn in this way? Just a little other way? Yep. Yep. Present on. Hold on like that. You're gonna arch like that. You can do it. Stand by. Yes. And we're actually gonna have you lift your foot a minute in a sec. There, you guys, we're gonna roll that front shoulder forward a little yet It's there it is. Nice. Yes, Yes. Nice big smile. Because this is also we love laundry. Yes, gorgeous. If I keep doing my horse stance, there's a joke here, but I can't say it on TV, so I'll tell you later. All right, lady, You go shake it out. Shake it out. All right. So you're gonna do the little twist towards the light. Yep. There you go. And now you keep the keep that arch in your back, and then you're just gonna bring the outside foot just okay? 123 lift. And you put again point the toe and really kick that foot up. 123 go. Yes, beautiful. Okay, so, um, after all of that work, I'm done with the clothes. We're gonna leave that. We're gonna keep the dress on for now. I love it. Yeah. What? This old thing? Just do that for a sec. Get more. What? I like the hand on the hip and kind of lean in. Take one step back for me. That way. Back towards the back. Right there. Perfect head. Like this? Yep. In the knee. Really? In. You're mirroring me? Yep. Really? Upon the toe. I like how you have the pearls. You're kind of like Rapid. Um all right, stand by. So I'm just gonna I'm just gonna keep raising my f stop here until I get the exposure I want. Normally, I just mess around with my shutter speed. There we go. Nice. Can we lift the backs? The snoot? Just a little bit. Maybe, Like just just angle it up a little bit, like maybe three inches. I am now ruined. And with an assistant, I get it. Now I get it. Yeah, something that's just get some sass in there, girl. Beautiful. Okay, So I'm gonna have you. You're just gonna turn facing this way, And you're just gonna pull up the dress like this when your feet are together like this and I'm gonna have our lovely Danielle here throw your skirts? Yes. So what we want to do is we want to see the panties if we can. So when way got a writer, people, we got a writer. And John, Do you think with this we need to lower the soft box a little? You think it'll be okay? I love the pearls. Leave the pearls. Sure, sure. That's cute, too. So normally I kneel. I'm having some issues with my shoulder today. Pretty bad. So I'm gonna be doing some really silly stances. You guys. So what? Apple box to sit on? No, it's OK. Thank you all. Just trip on it. What? I think so. You're legs are straight, and you're kind of just holding it up a little bit. Exactly. And then you're just gonna kind of pop the booty this way. Just a little. Oh, that stretches nice. Just kind of popped the booty that way. Little. There you go. Good. All right. On your mark. Get set. Go eyes the dress too stiff. Oh, that's cute, though. It's the dress is a little stiff maybe. Let's try toe. Yeah, let's try Maryland. Let's try to Maryland it do. Wait, wait, wait. Do that again. 23. Go do it again. But keep the knee forward a little. Like you just did just kind of, like, real casual and cute. Ready, set, Go. And with pin up to that second light, I have I've got this nude on it. It's aimed at the, um same with paper right now. Kind of give that old pinup halo that, you know, there's always that, like, bright spot behind the head, So that's what that's doing. But if you're in a studio and you have more lights, you can always put another strobe on the other side. And I always have them Kiddie corner, each other. So then that's how that's how you get that really nice edging. Yes, she's not having any fun. And let's let's go ahead and make this. No, let's make this stands apart just a little bit. Like maybe a little less than shoulder width. There you go. Perfect. Let's go ahead and pull it from the side. Good morning. Let's go ahead. I'm dying. You're so kyung. A day is it gets long ago. Maybe that maybe the fan, maybe the fan and slip it. So go ahead. Ready? Big smiles. Yes. When do you three go? Shake it down? One more time. When do they go? Okay, so let's go ahead and lose the fan. So what we're gonna do is we're just gonna have you kind of just pivot that way just a little. And then you just gonna go? You were that dress just saying she actually dresses like this in real life. Just so you guys go, I still I'm still waiting for her to come to my house, dress like this and bake me cookies. Okay, so you're gonna just let's see if we can get those cute garters. You're gonna just pull it up like when you're gonna hold it right at the top of your hips. Like how you did over there were I want to see it all, girl. Let's see it all okay. Yet one. What? No, it's just It's just, like, great. We want it. We want to see the garters, and we want to see the little ruffles on the panties. There you go. And then But you don't want to. You don't wanna lean like this. You want to be like So you're really hinging in the lower back and you're you're hinging back with your neck as well. So you're like, and let's kick a foot up, kick a foot up one do. There you go. Find fight. Kind of like, Yeah, it's OK. We'll get it. 123 go. So cute. Okay, so let's lose address first. Actually, this is the pearls. First, don't touch the so you guys have to keep me on time cause I'm like, having fun. I have been having fun the whole time, but this I don't usually get to do this. So we're going to keep it on for just a hot in a hot second. I just want you to sit right here. So we're gonna sit like this. You're gonna billow the dress around you, Or you could even be kind of like on a foot, if that's easier. I just really care about seeing one leg peeking out. So the leg that speaking out you want two point the toe? You can have the dress around. Junior could be like because we're processes. That's so weird toe work. Without music, can we kind of come? So it's, like less of a sidelight and more, More like this. We're putting one of our students to work. Perfect was point the total more. There you go. And let's see if the bottom fertile come out just a little bit. Just this. You perfect. How do you test it? So test a little higher on the stick. So perfect. And let's lower this snoop down. Probably about six inches or so we're going. I'm not there. Hold your horses. It's not. It's not this, but do that. I really do love that. I swear I do. I do. You bring your hand, but bringing this hand up this way, little like maybe on she's not feeling it at all. Yeah, that works. And then let's go like this. And let's bring the hand out just a little bit so the elbow doesn't lock. Perfect. Let's relax the elbow. Just a little. There you go. Point those toes down, all right? And let's instead of covering the face, we want to just use it. Like there you go. Perfect. Yep. And lift your chin just a little. Oh, that is so cute. Let's lower the snoot Just a little bit. Perfect. And this way a little smile. Gorgeous, Perfect. And now let's have you. Let's say, let's do something like really kind of penha be How about it? Can you kind of sit up and like, do this with the dress like you're like, arranging it and point the toes down this way and stretch your leg up. Point the toes that way? Yep. And then I kind of pull the dress out like this Like a fairy princess that you are. And let's have you kind of pushing it this way in your You're looking that way. Like a ballerina stretched that that arm out This way. And down. Down, down, down, Down the arm. Down, down, down. Okay, now let's lose the dress. And now I'm sweating. So now this has to come off too, Salfit. Isn't it cute without that? But I'm stuck on my thinking. Thank you. Just to give you some feedback, layer me as a Blanka in the chat room. Says the best model ever doing a great job. Just some one of our folks online. So since we have all the lights already down, I'm gonna start you on your back. So you're gonna lay on your back right here with your head about right there on your back, my head there and then likes that way right now? Yes. And you're in a scooch over this way, just a little perfect. And now your upper body is gonna come this way. Just a little hip. Stay where they are. Yep. And you're gonna kind of straight now. Just a little bit. Perfect. Perfect. We're gonna lift the legs and, like, a hot second. Yeah, so I'm gonna since we're gonna you know, the pin up one where they're down, the legs are up. We're going to do that. So this probably needs to lower. I think the snoot is probably fine. So when you're looking back at me, you just want it When you angle your face back, you want to keep your eyes closed, cause when a lot of times we look back like this, we look with our eyes and that crinkles the forehead. So keep your eyes closed when you do it. And if you need. If I ask you to bring your head back more, most everyone will go like this. Like they wanted. Take their eyes. You want to focus on hinging at the back of your neck. Okay. Correct. And that feels okay for you. I cannot does it. Does it hurt? Okay, it's fine. If it does, I can I can retouch it out. Okay. You're gorgeous. Gorgeous. You're killing this. No. What? I'm coming from this way. I'm not coming from the side, so you're perfect. Okay, So you're gonna go like this, you're gonna kick the legs up. Perfect. You're gonna turn your legs this way. There you go. You're in. Point the toes up. You're gonna bend that knee closest to me like this. Bring it. Bring it. Bring it. Bring it. He comes in this way. Turn your face. Turn your face this way. Did you not read my instructions? I said to stretch. I wrote all that for a reason. And you're gonna look back at me and let's bring Let's bring the hands. Kind of like under the jaw. Stagger them. Maybe won't bring one up to the temple. Go ahead and bring your elbow that way. That's OK. Left one That way. That way you can bring the fingers to the tempo. You hate this, don't you? Let's put your hands on your thighs. Okay. Better. They're gonna kick up this shoulder towards the ceiling. You turn your face this way. There you go. The bent knee goes that way. Point the toes and you're gonna hand it back of the neck and look at me. Hinder Back arch, arch, you're holding it. Hold your art. Bring your arch out. Tips it. Oh, tits. Okay. I hope we're not getting in trouble right now. Okay. Again, Let's have you have your upper body come this way. Even a little bit more, so we can see the side of you little bit. There you go. Perfect. Hands on top of the thighs. Pop that shoulder right here. Elbows out just a little bit. That one popped up, Elbows out. Just a little bit. Turn your face towards that pop shoulder. Better. That better. Okay, good. Nice big church. Beautiful. Gorgeous. Can we get? I'm not sure where we can put the light because I want it to be more even on her face. Should we just move her or I can't move it more this way, can I? I say that because it's just more. It's just got a little more sidelight than I want. Normally I would pull the camera here. I mean, the light here to make it really even on her face. But because I am obstructing the cameras in the studio. I can't do that. What if I moved her this way and move the light over here? Moved her more? Sure. Okay, let's go this way. Just a little more upper body. Let's try that again. like that and then bring your head this way. Perfect. And kick the legs up. They're gonna strip point the toes, but the legs go this way a little bit. Perfect. Stop, then this leg bones point the toe. The knee comes in perfect. Gonna arch here. Boobs up. Bring the elbows out. You're OK. Bring your elbows out. Hands Here is what's always funny to about when people on request pin up and they bring pictures. Their drawings, mostly People don't bend like that. Pop that shoulder girl. Turn your chin towards that shoulder. Oh, gorgeous. Hold that. Perfect. Okay, go ahead and stand up. We release you. How about let's do this instead? Since you're kind of down there anyway, let's have you Smeal right here, Neil. Right here like this. So you're not gonna actually sit on your heels? You're gonna pop up a little bit, which is also gonna suck. Probably. But you're just you're just sit like this and we're gonna go like this. All right? So you probably have to raise that just a little bit. So instead of like this, you want to be down like that so we don't want to be Yes. Thank you. Yes. Needs apart a little bit. And your butt is gonna come up a little. There it is, up like that. So you're faking city because you know, we want you uncomfortable. Let's bring turn it this way a little. Perfect. Let's go ahead and bring the knees apart. Just a tiny bit more. You know, like we dio she's a little sassy. All right, Now you're gonna like the hands right here, pop up. There you go. Visualize it. So you're gonna you're gonna pop up. We're making the abs tight. Where popping were rolling the hips back, booty back boobies forward, shoulders down the shoulder comes in like this, Like this. So you tilt the head a little beautiful, loving it. You look over your shoulder back that way, like, Oh, you just came in the room because it is what I do with ones. Right? There you go. Like I like I got to kick the hip this way. Yeah. Get into it again. Like you were just playing around. Yes, Beautiful. Okay, Now you're gonna come up like this, you're gonna be like, Okay, Like, fake it. So let's bring the knees together. a little bit hips back and you're kind of kicking your hip out this way and back like that, and we're gonna engage here next back a little. You're like, you hate this postal. How about something then? Like, are you sure? How about something like this? Is that more comfortable? Try this and elbows in like we're going to squeeze cleavage. Not that you need Teoh, but we're gonna use our elbows to squeeze the moves in to make cleavage do it. Do it. We want it like this in the outside hand. You're gonna bring it back like this, Miss, Hands like this. You're cupping this. I can tell you hate this post. That's okay. I couldn't stand for me. Okay, let's go ahead and raise the light just a little. Okay? Let's have you turn like this. Perfect. Your turn like this? Actually, I'm gonna go. I'm gonna tuck the tag. Is that okay? So I'm always looking for tags to help myself out in photo shop, because trying Teoh photoshopped out a tag through lacy or mesh sucks. So just roll it under there. They're perfect. You're perfect. You're absolutely perfect. These air, these air awkward poses. I know. Bend the knee closest to me. Head back a little. Let's have some fun. Let's turn this way Look like that. This Oh, I love that. Don't move. Don't with and arch that booty bag. So yeah, baby, go our justice. Oh, was there anything that you wanted to dio with the pen up look that we haven't done? Was there a particular pose that you were hoping for? You're open. Okay, Let's have you just hand on the hip, the side other way. And this hand here like this, and then just come to come like this march the booty back. There it is. I want you to feel it, girl. I want to capture you. Oh, had backalis way Little Get rid of it. There you go. All right, we're done. Good job. So, Rachel, a couple questions that back. Alright. Awesome question was and I'm forgetting the name now for something I found myself with. Question is from need a Diet Coke who has been here for a couple of days. I hope they've got one by now. Do you schedule specific pinup sessions or do you just go? That director and based on what a client brings toe wear or is this Is this a conversation before today has been just a whole lot of fun for me because I normally in my business model, I don't have access to to a studio, right? So if I did have an access to, you know, to Studio, I would definitely love to do more concept stuff. But since I do travel in since sessions or two hours, I get a lot of pent up requests, and I do the best I can with the venue that's available. I don't have backdrop. So when you look at classic pinup pictures, it's all on backdrop for its like at a beach, or I don't have a retro kitchen, you know what I mean? So we do the best we can. I travel with, um, flowers, hair, flowers that I keep in the makeup station. A lot of times, the pin up look is really just, you know, the cat I the red lip on the flower in the hair and clients were really happy with that. Eso There was a question about the shadows that were being cast in these images. Is that something that you liked. Is that something you're going to take care of later? Really? I wouldn't have shot it that way. I would have would have had the light more directed at her. But because of the positioning for the creative life cameras, I was unable toe have that freedom to move him where I wanted. So we did the best that we could with what was available, and I'm very familiar with doing that, so